Colour Me Positive, week 34 encouraged us to be our best version. Truthfully I have been contemplating on what to do for this project. I put it off for a few weeks to clear my mind and let inspiration come in.
Since I started sketching faces in 2014, the profile view had always been a big curve ball that turned out to be an eventual enemy. I have ALWAYS delayed anything that will make me do a profile view. I dreaded the learning exercise and will not even entertain the idea. Still I have often looked at photos of this particular view. Had cut out magazine pages and had looked at them for hours and hours not really knowing when will I be brave to jump in and try again.
This past weekend, as the inspiring quote said, “Whatever you are…be a good one.” I took the quote as a sign to make the leap and did this piece slowly, letting my drawing arm and hand tense, letting doubt steal the joy of the moment, letting stress rule and making myself almost quit. I had let myself experience these things to push me to face fear in the eye, to remind myself that I will never learn and be comfortable because I hold on to fear too much, and just because I have my lifetime to learn and practice, it does not warrant me to delay things over and over again. My heart told me to brave up or STOP.
And so I let go of my own fear and let my heart do the work. This piece took me three hours from pencil sketch to colored pencil sketch. Time very well spent learning. Its not perfect BUT its a start. Perfection I have learned, is not achievable. But when one says its perfect then it becomes perfect in that person’s eye. So yes, to me she is perfectly perfect with more room for improvements.
Colour Me Positive, Week 34
I took the time to work on my second version of The Goddess during this health camp time.
Like my first version of The Goddess, I used our wok as a template for the mandala. After drawing her, I started coloring her face using watercolor sticks and made a disaster out of it. So instead of starting over, I put on a brave face and tried putting on acrylic paint over her face and started over. This was the first time I did that and I was anxious. I left the acrylic paint to dry overnight before starting over. The next day, I started putting on watercolours again but this time reminding myself not to be in a hurry. If you know me, I get carried away by my own excitement and rush everything to finish. This time, as I am being mindful of everything I eat, feel and do. Taking time to be in the step by step process of my art is an awesome feeling. I get to look at every angle of the painting and make changes as I go through the process.
I love the make up I had given her using watercolor sticks and colored pencils. I used the same sticks on her hair, neck area and on the background.
I used the same colored pencil shade on her hair to stress on the outline and blended it using baby oil.
Bad me but I forgot the tangle name of the design I did for the mandala border. It was quite a tedious task as the painting was a bit big in diameter but I did not mind the repetitive activity as it helped relaxed my mind. With this border, I used pigma micron pen 0.4.
The finished version two of The Goddess. I am glad that this project took one week to finish. Working on her a few hours during the day and managing the things I wanted to change made her more dear to me. I hope to develop the habit of walking away from a project and looking at it again with fresh eyes. I already did just that with this and hope to continue on with the succeeding projects. Another thing that made this project exciting was using watercolors over acrylic paint with the addition of colored pencils. This was the first face project that I did that bold move and I am happy and pleased with how things worked together.
Here is a close up look at her face. She looks kind of questioning and sad. I redrew her face three times and the result was always at this expression so I eventually respected the look she wants and worked with her and not against her.
In less than 12 hours today I will be meeting my cousin Angela and her husband for our luncheon at a local restaurant. Today they are celebrating their 10th year wedding anniversary and I am so grateful that they chose to visit Malaysia and celebrate with Hubs and me.
Angela was one of my bride’s maid when I got married four years ahead of her and since we are celebrating her anniversary, I prepared a little something to surprise her.
A tangled artwork in a 4x6in watercolor paper using blue 0.5 uniball signo pen. Last year my cousin was so amazed at my first tangled art and told me she wanted to have them printed in a shirt for personal use. At that time I declined to indulge her request because my inner critic was out of her cage and was telling me that my work was not t-shirt material. Now, I that I have locked the closet where I placed my inner critic, I am giving way to my cousin’s request.
Another surprise is an angel doll that she could also print on a shirt or on a canvas bag. She after all is named Angela from her father’s name Angel. She originally requested just a face sketch but I wanted to give her more. Doing dolls are more difficult for me since I tend to do them in smaller sized paper and this doll is my first full winged angel doll.
My other surprise is a hand dyed batik fabric. Malaysia will be celebrating Hari Raya AidilFitri this coming Friday, it is the day that marks the end of Ramadan. Hand dyed batik fabrics are so expensive but with the festival coming I was able to get a good price. Angela loves to sew, I’m sure she will come up with something wonderful.
Its past 2am here and I’m still blogging! Good night everyone!