Colour Me Positive, week 34 encouraged us to be our best version. Truthfully I have been contemplating on what to do for this project. I put it off for a few weeks to clear my mind and let inspiration come in.
Since I started sketching faces in 2014, the profile view had always been a big curve ball that turned out to be an eventual enemy. I have ALWAYS delayed anything that will make me do a profile view. I dreaded the learning exercise and will not even entertain the idea. Still I have often looked at photos of this particular view. Had cut out magazine pages and had looked at them for hours and hours not really knowing when will I be brave to jump in and try again.
This past weekend, as the inspiring quote said, “Whatever you are…be a good one.” I took the quote as a sign to make the leap and did this piece slowly, letting my drawing arm and hand tense, letting doubt steal the joy of the moment, letting stress rule and making myself almost quit. I had let myself experience these things to push me to face fear in the eye, to remind myself that I will never learn and be comfortable because I hold on to fear too much, and just because I have my lifetime to learn and practice, it does not warrant me to delay things over and over again. My heart told me to brave up or STOP.
And so I let go of my own fear and let my heart do the work. This piece took me three hours from pencil sketch to colored pencil sketch. Time very well spent learning. Its not perfect BUT its a start. Perfection I have learned, is not achievable. But when one says its perfect then it becomes perfect in that person’s eye. So yes, to me she is perfectly perfect with more room for improvements.